Shrimpy

Name: Shrimpy Rank: ICP? I think? No clue of badge number tbh ID:76561198833723506 TS UID: vqKEPDf0/LlBuRH7UN2TFyl+CF0= Reason: Being an absolute asshole. Stealing a mass amount of medical supplies and trash talking command. Why should the blacklist be removed: I know its a permanent blacklist and i'm probably wasting my time but i'm going to try regardless. I ****ed up big time and what I did was and is absolutely reprehensible without a doubt. However I just want to explain a few things, Before I do just know i'm not trying to excuse anything I did as it was ****ed. I was in a super shitty place at the time mentally, I had played this server like it was my life as it was my main method of relaxing and escaping my situation at the time. I eventually got burnt out and due to a few extra things in my personal life going wrong at the time they did I wasn't thinking straight and for some reason took out my stress on people in the server/medics. In the time since I was blacklisted/Banned I have worked a lot on my mental state and well being. I have put countless hours and weeks into my well being and making sure I don't have lapses and act out in ways I did. I know it was only a year ago and it may not seem that I have matured much but I have, I have a lot. I miss this community and the medic community especially. I want to come back and prove that i'm not like I was before. About the trash talking of command, I had overplayed the server and crafted opinions in my head that had been fueled of the toxicity of myself and others on the server. it wasn't right of me to say the things I did and I genuinely wish i hadn't said the things I did. At the time it felt like I was expressing my emotions but I clearly wasn't. I was expressing wrong and toxic emotions that I shouldn't have. I respected you guys more then it sounded like. I still do. I want to talk about the things that occurred within the last two days. I had reinstalled Arma 3 and was planning on playing some other servers with my friends so i thought it might be funny to come here and troll the server by killing a few medics and RDM'ing others. it's clearly not humors to do that on this server however as someone who had not played the server in a large amount on months that wasn't something I had thought about. I have been enjoying the server since and really am enjoying being here again. I just want a second/third/fourth chance. I'm probably asking for too much but I really miss Medic, I enjoyed being friends with you all and really want to enjoy that again. I wont be stupid or act out again, it was stupid, Extremely immature and disrespectful. I gravely apologize for my actions and understand that my blacklist is likely not going to be revoked. Sincerely Shrimpy.

Name: Shrimpy Rank: Intensive care Paramedic Badge Number: 468 Reason For Being Disciplined? Harassment towards Command, Harassment towards other members of the APS, and something else I'd prefer not to make public. Why should the discipline be reduced / removed, given what you did? I believe it should be reduced because I have learnt from my actions and believe that harassing people over concerns/problems that I have is not the correct way to go about things. I made a severe lack of judgement and did not think about what I was doing at the time which led me to say things that I in honesty did not completely mean. I was in a bad head space and was influenced by negative people around me. What can you bring to the APS? I believe I can bring what I used to bring to the APS. A positive caring and all around relatively friendly yet protocol guided nature that I used to have as a member of the APS. I was experienced and highly knowledgeable of the APS protocols and feel like I can help share that and educate newer medics as this was my entire reason to join the APS in the first place. I know I won't have the same level of respect nor trust that I used to I just hope you all can understand I know I shouldn't have said the things I did and that it wont happen again. I've learnt and next time if I have a problem with somebody instead of making a negative face of the APS I will keep it private and either take it to the person whom I have the problem with or keep it to myself as I know there is no place for negativity nor toxicity in the APS or this world.